GOODBYE.HELLO.GOODMORNING

2009-02-13T22:49:00.002+08:00

i believe action speaks louder than words. you have no idea how much effort and how i struggle especially this sem.

no idea..

i dunno why must i say all these. i am not dreaming, it will be a reality.. not because i wanted it so much, it's the only thing that is dear to my heart.. and i want it to serve as an inspiration..

2009-02-11T00:03:00.004+08:00

my journey starts after Poly, that's where i take my faith to the next level, conquering challenges that come my way.

i am thankful for close friends who build me along the way:) a HUGE shout out to BESTIE, FIONIE, LOCKING PARTNER, TRI SIS and many others as well, of cos:)))

i'm looking forward to watching you grow and doing things that you like:) Have faith:))

i love eating, singing, dancing, colouring and drawing:)

2009-02-04T17:30:00.003+08:00

third.. after this i'll study:)

seriously, i need a break. i need a getaway, somewhere away from Singapore. i will someday for sure:)

ok, go study:))

2009-02-04T17:09:00.003+08:00

i wanna blog as much as i can, since no one will be reading, probably yet:) why did i give my studies up because of #$%^&*? but it was suffocating. i dunno whether i can do my tests, i just believe in YOU:) somehow, i hate myself? i hate the part when i become so pitiful, so vulnerable, insecure and dumb. seriously, get your soul back, Estee.

it's not the first time.. SECOND..

macy #1

2009-02-04T16:31:00.002+08:00

如果真的可以的话，
我希望时间能够倒流，
回去那无忧虑的我，

你累了，我累了，大家都累了。

很感谢和我分享那段美好的回忆，
虽然不是天长地久，但我过得很幸福。
现在是时候放你走，不舍得都得舍得，
因为这是我唯一能够表达我对你的爱意.

再见了, 我的爱.

2009-02-03T18:02:00.002+08:00

if you could only see..
if you could only hear..
if you could only feel..
i would have been there..

if i could only walk,
if i could only run,
if i could only fly,
you would have been there..

- no meaning- Hippo :p

2009-02-01T21:12:00.001+08:00

when you are down 2-5, where's the HOPE?
keep fighting, you have other grand slams to go. 믿어요

ll

2009-01-28T19:35:00.002+08:00

i am not the easiest person to love:)

:0

2009-01-20T17:08:00.000+08:00

for you BESTIE:)

2009-01-19T21:49:00.002+08:00

Leycia rawks! on 19 Jan.

As time goes by, laughing my tears away becomes part of Estee..

DD

2009-01-19T12:34:00.008+08:00

how does it feel when no one cares.. Estee is just tired and totally hate last minute work, cos you dun get to sleep alot:( blame it on my stupidity, wasting time surfing the net :((

Rules and Regulations
- Each player of this game starts off with10 weird things/habit/little known facts about yourself.
-People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/ little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
-At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names
-No tag back

1. Pink and Black are my secret colours. i think most girls just have some Pinkie and Blackies in them.
2. Estee ties her ponytail or whatsoever is because i wanna see my ponytail? i dunno, actually, just like it:)
3. SLEEP is my medicine for all 'sickness'
4. I have phobia of people who keep hitting me thinking it's a sign of affection.
5. l love soft toys alot, and seriously thinking of having a room filled with soft toys!!!!!
6. Estee is neither talented nor intelligent, i am super good at wasting time and perhaps money:) 7. Estee doesnt get angry easily, but she is petty. how ironic...
8. I dont like chocolates
9. I have a soft spot for noodles and potato and MANGO!!
10. I like someone who is from another planet. WAHAHAHA

10 people: who ever wants to do:))
TEN ARE YOU(S)
1. Are you single- :) yupps.
2. Are you happy- Not at the moment:)
3. Are you bored- I was.
4. Are you fair- not that fair..
5. Are you Italian- nope
6. Are you intelligent- see point 6:)
7. Are you honest- :)
8. Are you nice- I AM THE NICEST PERSON YOU HAVE EVER MET:))
9. Are you Irish- nope
10. Are you Asian- I'm Singaporean:)

TEN FACTS
1. Full Name- Ho Mei Si Estee
2. Nicknames- quite a few........... not telling..
3. Birth place- somewhere, cant remember..
4. Hair colour: super black
5. Natural hair style- M.E.S.S.Y
6. Eye colour: black
7. Birthday- 0806
8. Mood- ----
9. Favorite Color: Green, Purple and Gold:)
10. One place you'd love to visit: somewhere cool with may greens around, i wanna have a picnic:))

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love- yupps
2. Do you believe in love at first sight- many sights..
3. Do you currently have a crush- yupps yupps
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally- yupps
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart- maybe
6. Have you ever had your heart broken- yupps
7. Have you ever like someone but never told them- hmmm.. yupps
8. Are you afraid of commitment- nope, but not now:))
9. Who was the last person you hugged- Chonsa and Nabibi
10. Who was the last person you said i love you to? maybe Leycia?:) hahahah

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust- L.O.V.E
2. Hard liquor or beer- beer
3. Cats or dogs- soft toys:))
4. A few best friends or any regular friends- a few best friends, HORSEY!!
5. Creamy or Crunchy- I'm hungry:)
6. Pencil of Pen- pencil:) but i prefer COLOUR PENCILS:)
7. Wild night out or romantic night in- romantic night in
8. Money or Happiness- Happiness, you cant bring money along with you forever, but happiness can?:))
9. Night or day- Night- can sleep:)
10. IM or phone- mobile phone?:))

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out- nope
2. Seen a polar bear- soft toy?:)
3. Done something you regret- yupps
4. Bungee jumped- decided not to try..
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor- nope
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker- ?
7. Been caught naked- in my dreams? hmmm..
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back- nope
9. Wanted to disappear- i just disappeared... hahaha
10 ---

TEN PREFERNCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes- smile:) i like 'stupid' smiles:))
2. Light or dark hair- Asian colour?:))
3. Hugs or kisses- flying kiss:)
4. Shorter or taller- TALLER! DUH!
5. Intelligence or attraction- dorky + charisma:) heh
6. Topman or Zara- Zara
7. Funny or serious- dorky.. you can be dorkily funny and dorkily serious:))
8. Older or younger- OLDER.. 3-4 years:)
9. Outgoing or quiet- at the right time:)
10. Sweet or bad- 'stupid' HAHAHAHAHAHA

TEN HAVE YOU
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd- loving it:))
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour- yupps
3. Ever tried walkiing on your hands- maybe in my dreams. nope..
4. Ever been to a rock concert- nope.. Musical?
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team- supposedly, but nope.
6. Even been on a dance team- 'AM ON A DANCE TEAM
7. Even been on a sports team- Badminton:)
8. Ever been in a drama play/ production- some chinese thingy and ACT 3
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer, Bentley- nawwwwwww~
10. Ever been in a rap vide0?- nope

TEN.. LASTS
1. Last phone call you made- Bel.
2. Last person you hung out with- Bel, Hummie, Hui Hui, Lingkai, Swendy
3. Last you worked- dunno when..
4. Last person you talked to- Bel
5. Last person you IM'd- --------
6. Last person you texted- MUMMY:)
7. Last person you went to the movies with- can remember...... ROAR!! just cant think:(
8. Last person/ thing you missed- the enjoyment of music without stupid expectations.
9. Last website visited- Leycia's blog, that was how i started doing this.. ROAR!
10. Last kiss you had- cant remember, brain DIED.

Finally, i am done. LIGHTS OFF~

ss

2009-01-18T21:00:00.003+08:00

Father, i really want it.. ROAR!!:)
Anyways, thankies Leycia for helping me out for my japOnese:) love you:))

ran....

2009-01-10T22:00:00.002+08:00

It is how amazing i can really chat with my granny. loves granny to the max:))) i wanna buck up my Chinese and Canto for her. but sadly, she doesnt appreciate my efforts. seriously, boo hoo:((

Well, love chatting with Fionie and Locking Partner and lunching with Alson, i bet he doesnt know what was going on, or does he?:))

well, Estee knows it's gonna be tough in the future, but hey, i will surely regret if i just give up due to obstacles. really appreciate how Nicolette cares for Estee:)) i simply love "stupid" friends. heh:)) Estee promises i wont D**. :))

Beloved Cousin gave me a bracelet from S. Africa. how cool is that!!

ok, just some random thoughts today.

Bride wars date alright!!!! loves:))

ya!

2009-01-07T23:45:00.003+08:00

Thank you Fionie for this pic:)) catch up soon ok?:)

Thank you Stupid Girl, your random sms but no reply encouraged me too! Estee knows I can always count on you:) Despite not able to understand each other's stress and all, i'm really glad you can be there for me and vice versa:) Love the Bimbo BESTIE!:))

Thank you Lingkai and Christabel for being there for me, helping me out during this stressful period of time. I guess, without the both of you, i doubt i can manage the workload. love you darlings:))

Thank you Swendy for "feeding" me, and be nice to Estee by writing off the debts I owe:)) i'll remember to get your Christmas present! ROAR!

Thank you Locking Partner. You asking me out, encourage me in your own unique ways really comfort me:) knowing that there is someone who cares for Estee, Estee is very blessed:) Thankies Leycia:))

3 JAN

2009-01-03T11:45:00.001+08:00

I can’t let go.

어딜 봐도 네 모습이 보이고,

무너지는 내 마음 숨길 수가 없어. Baby, 단 1분 1초도.

I can’t let go.

어딜 가도 네 목소리 들리고,

부서지는 심장… 숨 쉴 수가 없어. baby, 단 1분 1초도.

1분 1초도

2009

2009-01-02T21:00:00.002+08:00

Hello 2009, Bye 2008!

Estee still wanna be a Smiling Hero:)

2008-12-01T23:18:00.000+08:00

p.s Cries in a distance - JJ Lin

laa...

2008-12-01T22:57:00.002+08:00

Maybe it's the time of the year.. Estee misses **:) but Estee knows it's rather impossible, yet, who knows. ok shuddup, Estee!

It's always around this time of the year, I miss KOREA like ALOT! i miss the smell, the breeze, the festive feeling, the trees, the sky, the place, everything.

I've been tagged by Estee's Locking Partner:)

1. I cant sleep well without my whole family's around.
2. Estee likes someone unreachable:)( and i am proud of it:) whoots!)
3. Estee can be either emotional plus indifferent.
4. Estee really wanna take up VIOLIN again!
5. Estee cannot resist food unless it's either yuckie or i'm too tired to eat.
6. Estee wishes she can have ALOT of MONEY so i can study many things like:
--> jewelry, cooking, designing, music, drawing, colouring, etc
7. Estee wanna buy a BIG BIG car and get a super NICE plus BIG kitchen for daddy and mummy:)
8. Estee loves daydreaming:)
9. Estee can be psychic sometimes. whoots! (i think everyone can be one sometimes:))
10. Estee super loves RAINY AND SNOWY days and nights:)
11. Estee loves SUNSET.
12. Estee used to hate purple!
13. Estee loves coming up with funny vocabulary to express my thoughts:)
14. Estee doesnt like people talking about her lips, makes her really insecure:((
15. Estee ever thought of quitting school, cos i used to feel that it's pointless studying? heh.
16. Estee decides to really study because of promises i made to Heavenly Father:)
17. Estee feels really FREE on stage.
18. Estee wanna be MACY!

[ According to your age, list down the number of things that most people don't know about you. ( i am lazy to tag people la. ok, ESTEE TAGS BESTIE!)]

2008-11-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

Smiles:))

aaaaaaaaaaaaa

2008-11-13T23:36:00.002+08:00

I didnt wanna blog initially, but since i wont be blogging next week due to many reasons, i should do it today:) Estee finally get to eat her HOKKIEN MEE! LIKE SERIOUSLY FINALLY! whoots!!.
just something random : When it rains, it falls. Estee's in LOVE!! whoots!! not exactly, ever since i went Korea 2 years ago, about this time of the year, i would have 'love sick'. meaning, everything reminds me of Korea. even the night scene down Orchard road, rain drops falling on me, the cool breeze bruhes against my face, etc. haha, not that i actually experienced rain and stuffs, cos it's winter over there!!!

ok, Estee has serious stomache problem. SHOO! GO AWAY!!!!!!

p.s Crazy Love- DBSK!

2008-11-09T22:55:00.002+08:00

Estee's powers are draining. maybe i'm too ambitious, maybe i should let other take over my mission. Smiling Hero is hibernating. 안 녕

aaaaaaaaa

2008-11-09T19:35:00.004+08:00

This year has been an eventful year for Estee. Well, i always thought that year 2008 will be a great year, since "8" is one of my favorite numbers. haha. well, not exactly great, since i've been a rollercoaster ride throughout this year.

Well, it's definitely a year where i find myself, find a new love, believe in a dream. of cos, i learnt many things. i learnt that Estee is someone whom doesnt get things easily, she has to work 101% in order to get 10% in return. haha. Yupps, kinda exaggerated but it's true. i always thought i can get what i want, but seriously, Estee's life aint that simple.

is Estee's existance really important to you? haha, not to me, even if i disappear, Sun still rises in the morning and sets in the evening. weeeeeee~ if anyone feels the same way as me, you are not normal. haha:))

Nonetheless, the love-y love-y feeling is getting into me, just by listening, looking and imagining, Estee's 'donald duck' never fails to make me smile. shucks, if only you know me.. :)

p.s stay with me...
shine your leaves

2008-11-07T10:44:00.001+08:00

People should be smarter. People should not complain. i have craving for hokkien mee ever since i learned that my project is on Food Republic. boo! Estee's hungry!

bbbbbbbbbbbb

2008-11-07T01:14:00.004+08:00

Some people just got IT, while Estee just does not have it. Tough living in this world, aye? Suddenly after the first week of addiction, Estee's slowly giving up. whoots!!

Estee is slacking her life away. i probably need to get myself in reality! ahh! Estee seriously needa sharpen up. Estee wishes that she can be more discpline, but everyday, Estee feels she's unable to resist temptation. Heavenly Father...

Good Night Estee! stay away from iam-missymangohehehe.blogspot.com from now on. stay away from potential downloadable sites. stay away from youtube. stay away from everything except your studies. dun like history repeat itself. you promised some stuffs, you cant broke them. it's not fair to Him. have discipline, have faith!:)

Estee probably won't be blogging(hopefully), Estee might take down this blog:) HAHAHAHA!! one thing about listening to Korean lovey-emo song during this hour, makes you feel a little not-yourself. that's how Estee is feeling right now. somehow, everything feels so crappy. i wanna be at home everyday. sometimes, Estee wishes she doesnt need to get out of the house. i feel so detach from everything. should i pon school? haha. crazy.. maybe from toml onwards, i shall start revising my lecture notes. cos Estee is always doodling during lecture. Brain cells are dying everyday.

Estee is really typing alot, but i don't care. cos i cant write that much in my journal, my hand will just be dead. haha. i miss having personal and private time- Me, Heavenly Father, and Journal.AHH!! i feel guilty. ROAR! Estee is hungry!! Estee needs some love. c'mon, if you are in love, please spread some to me!!!:))

( Some people just got IT, while Estee just does not have it. Tough living in this world, aye? Suddenly after the first week of addiction, Estee's slowly giving up. whoots!! )

GOOD NIGHT ESTEE! GOOD MORNING MACY!

p.s 정말 괜찮아요?

whatever

2008-11-04T11:15:00.002+08:00

If Estee has to let go, i'll probably will. Estee feels weird today, without having plans planned out today.. i knew that, things wont go as smoothly today.. i just knew:)

lalallaa

2008-11-03T23:25:00.003+08:00

hahha. just realised that i have drawn the eyes with two sizes, big and small. but still acceptable, Lil Kay-Cee ya?:)) whoots!!! btw, the two 'thingys' on top of your head is supposedly MOUSEY ears. haha. something random:)

ok, Estee is really looking forward to toml.. heh, feel bad pon-ning vetting. but hey, it's not always Estee is that lucky to have VIP seats. ok, i 'm showing off but anyways, i wont be doing this often ya?:) Forgive Estee..

anyways, dearie GIRLS, do update me about Locking and Hip Hop 3 ya?:)) miss Estee toml, cos i surely will miss you girls!! I initially wanted to give up going to KF for dance instead, but BESTIE reminded me that it's a SUPER RARE time i can go and see see. so yupps:))

Well, thankies Heavenly Father, today wasnt so bad after all:) from monday BLUES to monday GREENS+PURPLES+GOLD! whoots!!!

p.s Baby don't cry- Namie Amuro

random

2008-11-02T22:54:00.006+08:00

Ok, Estee is officially MAD. blogging again! whoots! Estee feels rather emo, right now right here, yo! Maybe Estee's kinda stressed. see, when you procrastinate till the last minute, you will definitely suffer like mad. i dun understand why cant i be more proactive, hardworking, discipline, blah blah. ah!!!

anyways, if you have ONE wish, what will you wish for?
Estee wishes that, no matter what, we don't get bodyaches:)) cos, when Estee is stressed, her body just aches so badly. ROAR!!

BESTIE, Princess Locker and Lingkai, thankies for making me feel better!!:)
BESTIE dearie:) ah! Estee is so thankful for having you around me. THANK YOU! you know what, Estee finds herself forgetting things easily. i can't recall alot of things in details. that's scary cos my school + project stuffs. seriously, Estee thinks she's stress! ROAR!!

2008-11-02T21:41:00.006+08:00

Estee is going for the KOREA FESTIVAL on TUESDAY, which means i'm gonna miss dance. guilty, yet i feel is worth it. cos you know why. ESTEE is given a FREE VIP ticket!! coolios. prayerfully, nothing goes wrong on that day!! Estee suddenly feel lost. must be the Monday blues acting up in me.. ROAR!!

p.s Walking Proud- Ayumi Hamasaki
p.ss Still cant think of the question yet. give me such diff tasks, chey. cant think of anything yet. DIE!!

laaaaaaaaaa

2008-11-02T18:06:00.004+08:00

This flower is for anyone who is feeling down right now:))

Hello Serenity, here you go, this pictures is for you! haas. the colouring is abit off. but i dun care. Estee likes it alot, cos i used the colour pencils which Princess Locker gave me:)) whoots!!!

Macy

2008-11-02T00:25:00.003+08:00

MACY

Korean Festival..

2008-11-02T00:08:00.002+08:00

Estee wanna go for the Korean Festival! I really do!

p.s One day, Estee wants to be MACY..
p.ss Love in the ice (piano ver.) - DBSK: never fails to make me feel in love:))

Audition

2008-11-01T22:37:00.002+08:00

Estee was too late, and somehow, Estee wanna cry:(
Yupps, i will train hard for next year. *YOU* gotta wait for me..
Heavenly Father......

LOVES

2008-11-01T22:11:00.004+08:00

Hello Dearie LEYCIA:)) honoured to be your SMILING HERO:) you know, Estee has big dreams too:)) shall tell you when we meet up?:)) that includes being a Smiling Hero:) It's ok not telling me about your problems, but Estee just wants to be there for you:) not just as a Smiling Hero but also a Confidante:))
SERENITY!haha! Estee's being a cheater bug! I drew this for you birthday, but Estee feels like posting this up!! whoots! Really glad that you came to tell me what's bothering and all, thanks for being so open:) just to let you know, Estee will try her very best to be there for you, i know that in the future, i might disappoint you, but at the end of the day, please know that i never mean to hurt and disappoint you:)) Estee loves talking at Istana Park. Love the feeling of talking in such 'romantic' place. haas:))
Wee~ Estee really HAPPY today, cos PRINCESS LOCKER bought me COLOUR PENCILS!!! ROAR!! Thank you so much!! Estee is really thankful that little things remind you of me:) ah!! You really make me wanna draw more drawings for you!! ah!! but, Estee thinks all the drawings will look the same at the end of the day. whahahaha:))) Estee loves Princess Locker:))

Estee doesnt care whether her blog is full of words. i just have many things to say. whoots. obviously, most of the time is crap. but still....

p.s Estee does feel sad and all, but then, i see no point in expressing in out. Estee destests crying infront of people, though i intentionally drop a few tears.

p.ss Estee loves the romantic feeling of walking at random places at night, with light breeze brushes against her face, and with the night smell:)

la

2008-11-01T00:15:00.001+08:00

Estee foresees herself talking in 'that' room.

Estee

2008-10-31T23:49:00.001+08:00

Hi, My name is Estee, and i am addicted to blogging:)

p.s Soba ni Ite- MISIA

drawings

2008-10-31T23:15:00.006+08:00

Estee decided to do some therapy during Lecture today.. Estee loves the HIGHLIGHTER!!
Princess Locker:) haha, Estee doesnt care! She looks like YOU!!
Locking Partner!!! Hope you like it:))
Overall, Estee was super bored during lecture.. Christmas is getting into me!! FA LA LA LA LA!

dearest Serenity:) hope you dun feel bad about gonna skip lecture and all. sorry, i din help you out, today. Estee hopes that she can do her best to teach you toml:) and apologizes for disappearing every now and then, Estee doesnt fancy such horrible stories. hehehehe:))

p.s Any Love- MISIA

misses

2008-10-31T22:57:00.002+08:00

Though you are anywhere but here.
Though you are so near but far.
Though you are reachable but noncommunicable.
Estee still feels your presence:)
Certain things reminded me of the times we all had fun together.
Certain actions reminded me of you would react at similar situations.
Certain thoughts reminded me of how we would talked about it.
Estee misses you:)

Saw Shu shu and Tri Sis today. ahh!! Miss exchanging hugs here and there!! though, we are like in the same school (diff course, obviously), we could hardly meet up. it's always the HI's and BYE's we were stucked with. ah, seeing them, makes Estee feels so emotional, ah!! made me wanna tear a little. Estee misses Ah Joong, Shu Shu, Tri Sis, Xin Xin and Vasugi! Somehow, laughing and crying seemed easier with them:) haha, Estee feels so Les. YUCKS!! Even talking seems easier. haha. Estee can even talk bad about them behind their back, beside them, even infront of them. Estee used to drag herself to school, find each day, so tiring, boring. But with them, everything seemed brighter. Even now, Estee still finds it hard not being able to see them everyday. if i can turn back time, Estee wishes to have more time with them, give them many many hugs, and many drawings as well!!

p.s Estee's feeling weird..

crazy

2008-10-31T11:57:00.004+08:00

No one does blogging like Estee, to what i think la. haha! Estee is really hungry now.. Estee feels like eating either Grilled Fish or Fish and Chips. Yumms. sure, Leycia, you can be my SMILING HERO:) no matter how 'weird' you can be (like Estee), you always make me smile after some frustrations like today. sorry that i feel this way. anyways, i did some therapy. i was super excitedly bought a sketch book, wanna draw and all, but stupid computer tempted me to blog! ah!! you see, once you start at something, it's hard to stop. ah!! Estee is still hungry.. FISH!!

anyways, Estee likes Make it Work- Ne-yo. i listened to it everyday! Estee enjoys hearing sad, love-y, R&B, emotional songs when blogging. whoots!! MAANGGOOOOO, HEHEHEHEHE!:)

This Can Only Be As Good As We Both Make It
Guess Sometimes Its Gonna Hurt
We Can Be As Happy As We Want To Be, Girl
But We Gotta Make It Work
We Gotta Make It Work...

p.s SMILING HERO

Peace!

2008-10-31T00:19:00.004+08:00

Estee wants to believe that she can make IT one day..
Estee wants to believe that she can make a DIFFERENCE..
Estee wants to believe that she can shine like STARS one day..
Estee wants to believe that she can INSPIRE people..
Estee wants to believe that she has a MISSION in this world..
and that includes being a SMILING HERO, being a STAR, being a FRIEND.
For all the lonely souls out there, for all the broken hearts out there, for all the sufferers out there, Heavenly Father cares for you:))

Dedication 4 and feelings

2008-10-30T23:40:00.003+08:00

Ok, here i am again! Whoots! Estee enjoys blogging for no one to read. haas:)
Today's HH3 training was fun. Initially, to be really honest, i sorta dragged myself to train, cos of the atmosphere so tense and all. but now, somehow, i see myself enjoy every second of it, though i know there's still room for improvement, but at least today, i can say for myself, i enjoyed myself:) YAY-ESTEE!

Estee nearly has blogging-block, till she sees Eulenie-ssi's tag!

EULENE-the PRETTY GIRL
Konbawa! Estee is being random now:)Just wanna say that if Estee's being too direct and hurt you in anyway, forgive me ok? As i am writing this, i was recalling the conversation shared between the both of us:) Haas, when i wore my contacts the first time, you were the one who really complimented me like ALOT of times:) haas. thankies for making me feel good about myself. just to share a little secret, no matter how i 'like' being unglam and all, Estee's still rather conscious about how she looks like, and obviously Estee wants to look pretty:) Thank you Eulenie-ssi:)Anyways, It's fun imitating you, but Estee fails terribly cos' i ended up looking stupid! ah!! i need IMITATION SESSION!!!:))

Estee has decided not to post up the earlier draft i did this evening. HAHA! too bad! Somehow, as days go by, Estee feels that i cannot pass a day without listening to music, moving to the beats, singing to the lyrics. Thank Heavenly Father for everything. whoots! anyways, Estee's feeling rather weird now, i have a combination of happiness, love-ness, down-ness, and weird-ness. Somehow, Estee wishes that someone super NICE will be able to give me THE Birthday Present i've been wishing, dreaming and praying. somehow, Estee feels alot for that present. Estee also wants to go to Korea. somehow, Estee feels that she's gonna leave Singapore. maybe i'm just thinking too much. shucks, it means that i might have to leave everyone and everything behind...

p.s Estee loves Precious- Yuna Ito

Dedication 3

2008-10-29T23:47:00.006+08:00

Heck la! blog again:) smiles! this time i wanna dedicate a paragraph to LIM MEI LING TRINA, ESTEE'S FAVORITE SIS:))

TRI SIS
I doubt you're gonna read my blog (..yet) ah.. where shall i start. Estee just misses you! ah, suddenly, i have this emotional feeling. oh man!! Estee wanna thank you for everything. Your silly, oblivious actions like Estee's 'BOYFRIEND' makes me love you more!! ah! sound so LES. yucks! anyways, having to know for abt a year. it has been a blessing to me. i totally miss the frustrations i get from you when you are totally UNREACHABLE at times, miss the times, we called each other and study together, miss the times i bully you, miss the times i have to lend you Estee's GREEN highlighter, miss the little notes i wrote for you, miss the little drawings i scribble on your notes. miss sitting with you during lectures and tutorial and being high with you. I find it so hard right now to meet up with YOU, XIN XIN, SHU SHU, AH JOONG, VASUGI,etc. i totally miss you la. doesn't mean Estee din sms you, i din think of you. As you know, Estee is just lazy. MAAANGGGOOO-HEHEHE( Estee's mango + prawn laughter:)) being a year older now, meaning, you have to mature! uh huh! now i know why am i still having like a 15 year-old kid, it's all BECAUSE OF YOU! BOO! heh. anyways, Estee wanna let you know, you are someone (Estee's sis) whom i never wanna lose, cos without you in Estee's life, means that i am losing my childishness and youthfulness. Estee wants to give you many hugs when i see you the next time. Estee is also sorry for not being able to chit with you for long, Estee loathes 'HI's and BYE's'. You're one of my SMILING HEREOS.

Dedicated 2pt2

2008-10-29T22:22:00.002+08:00

Estee is mad. as you can see that, Estee is addicted to blogging. haas, i bet this ^highness will die out once i am like super busy in the near future!! Having blog-hopping around, realised that, in the midst of everything, they are putting on masks to please people, in fact deep inside them, lies a lonely soul, just waiting to be comforted and understood. Estee wanna be a SUPERGIRL, sprinkle some magic dust here and there to make them feel better. Obviously, Estee's a no no Tinker Bell, yo! anyways, everyday, Estee shall pray that people will be able to smile more often, and cry less often. Missy Mango 蝦蝦蝦 loves you:*.

Dedicated 2

2008-10-29T21:21:00.005+08:00

Estee is kinda hooked on to blogging. Somehow, i dun care whether people read anot! Esteedoesnt care! whoots!! Today's Char Char's birthday. din get to wish her, cos my phone was hibernating. haha! CHAR CHAR! BY ANY CHANCE YOU SEE THIS, HAPPIE BIRTHDAY, YO!! ESTEE LOVES YOU!!

ok, i seriously think Estee is super slow. haha. i sorta knew that Ayumi-san was deaf on one ear, but i chose not to believe, cos it's kinda unbelievable, since she's always so strong and making so many beautiful songs!! suddenly feel kinda emotional, ah!! AYUMI-SAN FIGHTO! Estee loves YOU!! She inspired me to love STAGE, and forever, Estee shall remember her! Whoots!

Estee is super glad to have the SISTAS around me, it's like no matter what, they will always be there for me and always willing to have around them, irritating them, and singing around them. haha. and thank you for forgiving me for so many times, 'abandoning' you SISTAS for other people. Estee says THANKIES!:)

HUMMIE:)
Estee's favorite Hummie of all time:) at first, when i was assigned to work together to do the lawyers project, i was afraid that we could'nt click at all, well, Estee is glad over the time, we are able to chit chat even though, there was the topic: TENNIS! haha. i am like so glad that i have some knowledge about it so we won't end up awkward. Estee really enjoys your company, your sudden 'weirdness' is really funny! haha.
(p.s Estee finds your drawing really cute. draw for me one day? i'm not being sarcastic, yo!:))

SZE HUI:)
hello HUI HUI! First of all, Estee is thankful for you buying the pair of havianas for me:) and most all, the correct SIZE! whoots!! oh ya! i havent read finished your book, i think i should return you soon! hahaha. anyways, Thankies for including me whenever we either lunch, studying, bla bla. and really like the way, you refuse any friend to be left behind, always making efforts to make sure they are accompanied!!:)) Whoots! send me some new songs if you have ya?

SWENDY WITH THE 'S'!
hello! haha, Estee enjoys bullying you! wahaha. and i am glad that you are not really affected by it, i am sorry if i have gone too far. let me know ya? though, i find it hard to accept criticisms, i wanna learn how, now:) thankies for treating me to lunch and the MEN'S pocky! yupps, i shant ask people to treat me always:( i am rather BHB. heh.

LINGKAI:)
hello, thankies for appreciating Estee:) anyways, thankies for listening to me and always makes Estee smile with those sms-es you sent occassionally, encouraging me to press on when i sorta lose the motivation. and yupps, Estee loves sausages! yummies to the infinity! haha. and seriously, tickling LINGKAI is so much fun! seeing those little goosepimples suddenly pop up, really amuses me. hahah, i sounded so pervertic! don't care.

CHRISTABEL:)
hello Bel bel:) Estee's singing partner! haha. i still cant master 'Baby don't cry'. it's really a tough song to learn. ah! anyways, Estee is really grateful to you, always so willing to listen to my rubbish Korean. haha. and really thankful for you cos' we really share common interests, liking similar songs, always being there for me, encourage me, and never fails to smile along with me. and yuppies, it's ok to daydream every now and then, because, we humans need to chill, take it slow and be quiet by ourselves. and seriously, Estee is super 'Pei Fu' your discipline and all. let's FIGHTING together, to do well for our projects ya?:))

hello Lil Kay-Cee:)hope you din feel left out when you came to eat lunch with Estee. anyways, feel free to call me if you need someone to accompany you ya? Estee wants to be there for you:) hope you're feeling better about the whole class thingy. you're always loved by TPDE, and of cos, yours truely, Estee:) Cheerie ups!!:)

p.s Estee wants to be SUPERGIRL:)
p.ss MANGO-MADNESS cravings!!!

Dedicated:)

2008-10-29T00:01:00.003+08:00

Estee loves LOCKERS, of cos locking as well:) Estee really glad that PAPA and MAMA appreciated our efforts and all:)) love them lots, cos they are always so willing to come down to our level, having fun and eating together. Whoots!! i wanna be like them when i become a senior next year. Whoots! super exciting!!!

i think PAPA is really a good CHINGU to Estee:)
PAPA: "Estee, u reach hm safe liao? Later u say u got lost. Haha."

JUNWEI- PAPA chingu:))
Hello! first impression- untouchable. meaning, i would never imagine that Estee will be able to talk to you so freely, cos 'kena' intimidated. heh. Estee always enjoy the Locking sessions because, though you may occassionally stress us and all, you still create a light atmosphere for us to learn in such fun and high environment. Estee likes PAPA's rubbery face! haha. so cute. dio^ dio^. Please take care of your backie alright? Dancers need to have strong bones- so drink ANLENE!! hehehe:) Estee wants DONALD DUCK!!:))

JUNJI- MAMA chingu:))
Estee never expects Junji to be so giggly la! haha. super funny!! anyways, really thankies for the cap you gave us. really SWEET of you. despite the 'SECRET', you always do your fullest in training, teaching and cleaning our steps, and also offered to ask GRANDPA to help us( though, he din appear) but still, the effort you put in, Estee is really grateful:)) whoots!! anyways, Estee can't wait for her birthday to come next year! ESTEE WANTS TO EAT SOMETHING NICE, no, no FOOD COURT, or COFFEE SHOP, don't friend you ah!!:))

FLO- the Funky Technical Locker:)
You know what, Estee misses FLO!! where are you?! Estee misses singing random songs with you, misses all your 'mini-lessons'. And also, all the random 'freestyling' to "... let's make LOVE..." Estee loves you. Hope your granny's getting better!!

FIONIE- the Bouncy Cute-sie Locker:)
hello!! Estee loves Fionie cos' she is really nice towards me! Cos she donated $2 so that i can buy Estee's MANGO thingy cake. YUMMS! and love being ^HIGH with you! please give Estee many many discounts if i buy stuffs from your mummy's shop. whoots!! and btw, learn K with Estee and your sis leh:( Estee super poor thing la, no one supports Korean Estee:(

LAVONIE- the SEXXXXYYYY Locker:)
Peekaboo! Estee misses you every now and then, cos you seldom pop out your face whenever we have mini lunches and outings:( sad-ed please. no more, 'secret' problems that prevent you from disappearing from meetings ya? if not NO MANGO SMOOTHIE FOR YOU!!!

JASMINE- the Princess Locker:)
your sudden ^highness is super adorable can!! " WO YAO SHA LE NI!" and your "ZI LIAN" cam-whoring is super fun too!! whoots!! really enjoy your company! thankies for opening up to Estee, even on the first time we really met and chit-chatted on the bus:) whoots! i wanna go JB soon and EAT ALL THE FOOD!

LITING.LEYCIA- Estee's Locking Partner!:)
hello! really appreciated all the love you gave to Estee. and always so willing to learn the ^highness from me (obviously you failed!.. kidding:)) and really not easy to bear with me when i am crazy. GOOD JOB!! Yuppies, anyways, Estee wants to be there for you, yuups, not easy to any-o-how open up to others. so ya, just to let you know, if you need some laughter. i will sms you:" MAAANNNGOOOO..HEHEHEHEHE"

SERENITY- the Adopted One:)
hello! Dance partner! great knowing you! it's been really happening, being around you, being exposed to more Jap stuffs and all. it's really cool. but you know what?? KOREAN IS BETTER! dont care about you!:) Thankies for supporting and encourging Estee, not many people actually sincerely giving me their blessings. i may not know what the future holds, but Estee believes, Heavenly Father has a plan for Estee:) just a favor: Estee really needs you, and you are someone whom i treasure for a lifetime, please encourage me whenever i am down. Estee is also super willing to be by your side, hearing you rant and blah blah. and really glad that you're Estee's older sister at time. whoots! Estee loves being YOUNG!!

Estee's in <3

First!

2008-10-27T15:42:00.002+08:00

Hello Everyone! my FIRST post after such a LONG LONG time:)! can you believe it? Estee-ssi has a blog. ok, have been SUPER excited about it:)) been wanting to have a blog ever since i've been blog stalking for many weeks. heh. tried super hard to get one done yesterday, but due to some i-dunno-what reasons, the template i wanted cant be used. sad-ed:(

Estee is SUPER happie cos' i had so much fun at Leycia's house. Taking random pictures and videos. oh man!! i dun want this day to pass just like this. please give me a 'REPEAT' bottom, to repeat the scenes over and over again. Estee assures you, i won't get sick of it:) it's super SWEET and BUTTER feelings:) Love you girls, Serene, Fionie, Princess Locking, Chio girl Eulenie, Locking Partner!! Of cos, not forgetting Lavonie and Flo!! AH HA! YOU MISSED OUT!!! whoots!:))

ok, Estee is mad. haas. third post of the day.. i seriously hope that Estee's taggie won't die after awhile, if not Estee will be so tempted to delete the taggie away, like last time, soon after, have no motivation to blog. heh. ok, anyways, on my way for dinner at my church aunties' house, i thought about what kind of birthday present i would like to receive next year. NO, it's not SOFTTOYS, though i seriously adore them!!:) NO, not really, colouring books, but rather something special. ok, i always dream that some day Estee will be a XXX, having her own recording studio and dance studio. i wanna have a really nice makeover and have photo shoots at some random studios, and would like to record a song- Estee's birthday song:) ok, yuppies, i dunno how i am gonna make it. heh. Heavenly Father.....

p.s 'MAYBE'<3

p.ss You know what, i am craving for Ramen and Mango-ice. YUMMS:)

p.sss cant wait for Tuesday to come, MANGO SMOOTHIE!:))